move on :)

IN THE NAME OF ALLAH, THE MOST GRACIOUS, THE MOST MERCIFUL

assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh youolls. 

:)

it's been awhile since last i update my dear blog.

well, bukan kemalasan tapi laptop hantar pegi kedai untuk upgrade. 

jd slama ni online twitter pun pkai ipod ja.

okay lah....

hmm....hari ni baru january 8 2013.

on january 5th, i had a blast outing with mr.f (yes, my ex but we're a close friend now) and my dear atiqah zahari and my little sister si dalila yang comel tuh. :3

though actually is not a total blast because i somehow ruined it half of it.

but i wannat thanks f and keyo. 

i apologise for my stupid behaviour that day. :)

anywayyyy. it's still new year kan kan kan.

so...basically, this entry is about my grudge actually.

em, the grudge and hatred that i held for almost two years.

baru hari ni kut rasanya nak let go perasaan tuh.

x tau kenapa. :)

hatred and grudge that i held towards zenith gen.

my senior in KUPSIS.

to be honest. smpai la ni x bleh lupa lah apa y jadi masa f4 tu.

tapi yang buat tu....some of them ja.

tp y aku held hatred ni smpai smua dlm batch zenith aku bencikkkk.

walhal diorang x besalah pun. :)

so here i am, 

serendah rendahnya ego ku turunkan,

nor amalina binti ibrahim (yes, this is my real name)

ingin memohon ampun maaf kepada sesapa y terasa dgn saya dulu.

kini.

dan sekarang.

hoho. bukan bemaksud nak bitch dgn smua orang.

just i had a phobia. cause i never met someone as mean as them in my whole life.

:)

yes i admit, 

i do have my own crime, mistake, sin, you name it.

but i also didn't get a proper justice back then.

and because of that,

i held hatred against them all.

but all the hatred won't help me in anything pun.

in other words. it's just a useless feeling.

not even a good one.

and after a while. nak masuk 18 dah ni,

bru la i came to a realization. how idiot am i,

for helding a hatred and grudge that didn't even gave me any benefits.

and i didn't get a full peaceful life while my heart full of anger, hatred and grudge against them.

jadi tetiba malam ni rasa,

it's time to let it go amalina.

so i made move to knock knock on abg zakri and kak afaf punya twitter.

it's not so bad at all though. 

:)

to forget the past tu mustahil.

forgive my self and begin again tu ya.

:)

so people out there, if you are helding any hatred feeling or grudge or anger against something,

let it go with a positive thinking and put your trust fully in Allah.

because...trust me. this hatred feeling will train you to get mad easily yooo.

and the most important is, those feelings ain't giving you any peace.

belajar memaafkan macam nabi Muhammad s.a.w.

besides. everything happen for reasons. 

.senyum.

and may peace be upon you.

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posted by amalienaziyad. d[u.u]b

F U T U R E

ASSALAMULAIKUM,~~~~

hoho. update lagi. 

okay. kali ni topik future pulak. hemm.

x lama lagi, result spm akn kluar.

jujur dari hati nurani ni,

sungguh aku x yakin aku akn dapat straight a's.

aku x hope pun dapat a banyak banyak. :)

apa yang aku dapat, aku just besyukur ja.

sbb apa yang jadi Dia yang tentukan.

yang penting, i have given all out, given all my best,

in my spm.

insyaAllah, kalau result x gempak pun, future masih ada.

spm bukan penamat tapi permulaan chapter baru dalam hidup.

a new phase in other words.

and cakap ni bukan sekadar nak sedapkan hati sendiri tapi kenyataan.

x dpt banyak a dlm spm doesnt mean x boleh berjaya.

ada ja orang y failure dalam sekolah berjaya sekarang.

yang selalu fail masa sekolah jadi jutawan.

yang x sempat habiskan sekolah jadi usahawan sukses.

maybe the most important thing is...semangat yang kuat untuk tetap melangkah mencapai impian.

dan melakukan segala galanya kerana Allah,

dan meletakkan kan segala galanya kepada Allah,

lalu berserah dan berdoa kepada Allah.

sedangkan permintaan syaitan laknatullah untuk hidup selamanya pun Allah tunaikan,

apatah lagi permintaan hamba-Nya yang kadang solatnya x diterima-Nya kan. :) 

so...maybe kalau x dapat result gempak mcm org lain pun kan...

maybe can make it as our own inspiration untuk bangkit.

dan buat lagi yang terbaik lagi. yes, it can be hurt but it also, can be our rainbow after rain. who knows. :)

apa pun, kena pegang prinsip mcm ni jugak kut. tapi lakukannya base on Islam lah. 

walaupun kecewa, don't stop dreammmmmhh,~ :D

dan maybe, selepas tu boleh jadi stars pulak kan,?

mcm quote nih, 

paham dak makna disebalik quotes nih,?

maksudnya... bintang xkan bersinar tanpa kegelapan.

bintang tu kita. kegelapan tu maybe kita punya...

failure ke...or kekecewaan kita k...

dan sewaktu dengannya lah. hehe.

dan percayalah, segala yang terjadi ada hikmahnya.

dan Allah tahu ap yang terbaik untuk kita.

dan jangan takut untuk take chances, take risks,

embrace your fear. take the fail, take the disappointment, take the hurt.

 insyaAllah. berjaya dunia akhirat.

dan bukan life namanya jika hidup takut disakiti dan takut susah.

letaklah dunia di tanganmu, dan akhirat di hatimu. 

insyaAllah all is well. :)

 dan lagi dua hari nak masuk 2013 tahun masihi.

and may peace be upon you all. 

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posted by amalienaziyad. d[3.3]b